racer96's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I wish I could have said goodbye. Fuck. I just lost an entry I was typing because I tried to wipe some scum off of my keyboard. ============================================= It seems I've taken to swearing in my entries more often. A thing that I used to try to avoid. Odd. ============================================= Some things really piss me off. As beetle has come to find out, I'm not always this happy light quirky fun guy. (At least, in my head I seem to have this feeling that I am on occasion, that person) Sometimes I get angry. Usually at some minor little thing that on any other given day, I wouldn't give second thought to. Sometimes I get angry just for the sake of getting angry. I'll yell or I'll vent just to let it out. There are times when I feel like I'm just trying to contain it, and times when it just feels good to get angry at someone who may or may not deserve it, yet they'll never know that I was angry at them. Oblivious. ============================================= These thoughts all just boiled up, when I read a caption in the newspaper today. Under a black and white photo of an ordinary average woman "I have a lot of pressure. I work and I have two kids." The lady was from Dallas, doing who knows what up here in Vancouver. But the reason why she got her little soundbite into the newspaper, was because she was buying marijuana from a small cafe in downtown vancouver that was recently busted (and re-opened less than 24 hours later) When I saw that caption I wanted to grab that lady by the shoulders and scream at her that everyone is under alot of pressure. And that many people are under more pressure than she could probably ever imagine. Hypocritical much? Sure I am. But for whatever reason, that just set me off. ============================================ And it's not because it's marijuana. If some people want to do it, fine. I don't know if it should be made legal, but I do think that there should be some consideration given to the matter. Would I try it if it was legal? Nope. Just not for me. And no, I don't think that makes me any better than anyone that wants to try it. Or wants to do it. (Ok, well, maybe just a little better, you fuckin' slackers) It's akin to smoking, for me. Never want to smoke. Why pay money to kill yourself? I'm getting way too off topic. ============================================== Well, not really off topic, just, venturing into a topic that I don't really want to get into. Not at this time. This place. ============================================= In other news, my uncle died this morning. Family life is going to be a mess for a while. Pressure. Mike - ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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